Lately, I have been feeding my soul with beautiful sceneries and good food. Have been too focused on work that i needed to really learn to chill, see the world without deadlines and KPIs. I have been so involved into work that every nano second, I am constantly thinking of proposals, plans and strategies. I had forgotten what it really means to live.
2010 is coming to an end and this year has really been a good year for me. I am not one for resolutions but much have been achieved which i am glad i did it. I remember having dinner with a certain Mr X one evening and we were just chatting about the future. I was asking him what his plans for the future are and what does he see himself doing in years to come. He told me he doesn't know and he rather be realistic and not dream.
Wow.
It took me quite some moments to understand what he just said and digested it. He doesn't know? don't believe in dreaming? Whoa.
I couldn't comprehend. How can anyone possibly not dream? How can anyone don't believe in what they have now can become something bigger by having a vision? I don't have my head in the clouds but without dreams, we tend to box ourselves up easily and get contented too quickly.
Probably this is his way in finding happiness. Someone once told me - what drives you is who you really are. I ask myself that everyday, hoping to find the answer i am searching for. There are times i place less value on myself, shortchanging what i am really worth. This is not right and i aim to change it for the new coming year.
I want to fully live and live beautifully.
