Letting go. Moving on.

Tonight.

The night air tingles on my skin, my heart waits to seek.

After months of living in the past, tonight i will let go so that i can feel the future.

There were memories that were precious and there were words remembered to my heart.

I think of them everyday. Every night.

The familiar pain. The sodden pillow. The still of the night while i stood to gaze for the longest time.

Sentimental. So much of you in me.

Regrets laughed in my face. I held on, putting thin hope for an outstretched hand.

But tonight. It's time.

You were the closest and now being the farthest, i had to wake to reality.

I want you to be happy. I want to you to feel the love you always wanted. I want you to be who you want to be.

I don't have many things i called precious. You were one of them. But now, I will let you go. I now know how it feels.

I am dedicating this post to you. It's hard for me to let go but letting go will stop the tears flowing, the pain coming.

Sometimes you will never know the acute pain i have thinking of you.

But that's life. You don't have to know.

Some people get forgiven for being a fool. Some carry the guilt of a fool for life.

I have always wished this day won't come. Because i don't have much.

But even with the little that i have now, i will let you go.

I wish you much love. Be happy.

I will truly miss you.

The day where something surreal truly happened.

Today something surreal happened. I finally know my value. As a person, as a companion, as a mother, as a friend.

Defense walls come crumbling down and when I dare to bare myself in front of me, i see a garden of flowers waiting to bloom, a silver lining waiting to shine.

Thank you to you who have brought this realization upon me. I have never thought a chance meeting like this can bring such a huge discovery of myself that i am shaken emotionally, a good kinda shake.

I marvel at fate. I credit this to God. I am still overwhelmed.

But my life truly begins now. :)

Hope.

Sometimes hope can bring out the extreme sadness in you, when things you have been longing for pushes you away.

Things that happened for a reason but not according to hope.

I am hopefully sad for now.

Dreams and dust

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