A New Begining.

Okay.  Big news.

Hmm. I have gotten a new job. 

It could very well be the job whom i have been searching for all these while; one which gives me that sense of fulfillment, the meaning which i needed for my isolated life.

Going from the advertising industry to the education field is seriously a big and scary move for me. After mxing much with creative people, working in a flexible and quirky evironment for so long, i am indeed afraid of not being able to fit into the corporate society again.

But sometimes in life, we learn to take that step of faith towards the unknown, knowing that even though there's no turning back, we will never be the same person again. 

As much as there might be a flurry of excitement towards the new begining for myself, there is indeed a very deep sense of loss and sadness when i think about the people I am going to leave behind.

It leaves me entangled emotionally.

The boys at work ain't making it easier for me either. Not expecting them to take my resignation so badly, seeing their gloom and sensing the air of sadness around makes the leaving even harder.

This past week has been tough enough. Sometimes, when i chance upon past memories which we had together as friends, as colleagues, a drop of tear threatens to fall but i kept it in to remain unaffected in front of those who are affected.

But as much as i wanna hide, it does affect me alot.

Because i treasure people very much. People whom are good to me, people whom believed me for who i am, people whom i dared to let down my guard a little.

Now that the inevitabe is coming, it's as if we are cherishing every moment i have left with them. It's like spending the last days with a terminally ill patient whom we know there's no other way but to accept what's to come. We start to let the minor stuff between us fade away and we focus on the intangible. We take life lighter and enjoy the ticking moments we still have as colleagues.

I know it sounds really over the top when they are just plainly colleagues but i guess i appreciate them alot more than others because simply the fact that they accept me as I am. They were there when i was going through my lowest and gave me the comfort when i least expected it.

I will indeed miss them so much. 

But i know life has many phases. My chapter with them at this point of time has reached its end and the only way to receive the new is, to let go of the old.

I will never forget you guys. Love.